Was this really happening? Is it ok to lose your virginity on Shabbat? I thought. I had wanted to lose my virginity for a long time. Once it was gone, I could just move on with my life. And with Jake! He was so hot. I could tell everyone tomorrow. Then I wondered if there was anything to munch on in the kitchen.
I remember thinking I could really go for a Snickers bar as he thrust himself inside of me. It hurt. It took him three tries to get in. And then his eyes widened in surprise.
“You’re a virgin?” he said, holding my face between his hands and kissing my eyelids and my cheeks and then my lips, as though now he realized he should be more tender, make this more special for me, or something like that.
“Yeah, whatever. Just do it,” I said, and stared out the window again. The stars were getting a bit fuzzy, the room swaying. Or was that me? He was up on his elbows thrusting, pecking kisses at my lips and grinning wildly, looking, well, looking as stoned as I felt. It felt good after a while. I started to moan and thrust my hips back up at his. I reached my arms up, tangled my fingers in his hair, and pulled him down for a kiss. Then he groaned and I felt him spasm and contract inside of me, his face grimacing in ecstasy.
He pulled out and I was cold and a bit wet. I shivered. He kissed me on my forehead and I pulled the comforter up and tucked it under my chin. “I’ll be right back, okay? I’m just going to clean myself up in the bathroom.” I nodded, then I must have passed out.
When I woke up the next morning I had no idea where I was. Jake’s zebra striped comforter was wound around me like a cocoon, but I wasn’t in his room. Fuck. Where was I? I blinked my eyes a few times and tried to get my bearings. Shit. I was asleep on the red frat house sofa. Naked. Wrapped in Jake’s comforter. I could see the frat boys in the kitchen making breakfast. Fuck! Had I missed Torah reading? The room smelled like puke.
As I got up and managed to inelegantly disentangle myself from the comforter, make my way to the bathroom, throw up, find Jake’s room and my clothes, I could hear the chuckles from the kitchen. I could feel their eyes on my naked form. Jake wasn’t even in his room. As I made my way to the door of the frat house, past the leering eyes in the kitchen, I heard one of them call out to me. “He had to make minyan!”
Another one said, “Don’t take it too harshly chica, he doesn’t like to share…not even a bed!” and then the hooting laughter began. I cried all the way back to my dorm room. The walk of shame had never felt more shameful. I didn’t even show up for Shabbat lunch at the Hillel House.
Celebrating 10 Years & Marking the End of An Amazing Project
Celebrating 10 Years & Marking the End of An Amazing Project
Such an amazing experience! The Sarah Lawrence Jewrotica workshop was more than I could have ever expected – a comfortable, safe, sultry environment where participants clearly felt good about sharing or listening to each other’s intimate experiences and relating them to sexy stories from the Torah. From the moment the workshop began, Ayo had a sweet presence that was kinetic and spread around the room; her storytelling abilities had everyone enraptured and made the conversation topics relata… Read more
Jewrotica rocks. It’s funny, it’s informative, it’s sexy, it’s interesting. Check it out!
The people behind Jewrotica are quite quality! I have confidence that any project these folks take on will be equally quality.
What an incredible night Jewrotica was!!!! There was this fantastic moment, in a sea of Jews of all sexualities, ages, backgrounds and denominations, that I realized we were all in this together! I hope that there are many more events coming to Austin soon!
The Jewrotica event “Evening of Jewrotica: Bedside Reading” was awesome. As Master of Confessions, I got to read the deepest, darkest secrets of people in the room out loud… It was scintillating, titillating, and – yes – even educational!
At Jewrotica’s Evening of Bedside Readings, students declaimed monologues on sexual encounters that had a Jewish twist. At Columbia/Barnard Hillel, the speakers pushed their own boundaries by performing a range of explicit narratives that challenged how the audience thought of the relationship to Judaism and sex. During the speakers’ preparation, the arguments about which narratives would be appropriate forced students to take a stand and voice their opinion on their own beliefs about Judaism an… Read more
Jewrotica is awesome. It expands the mind and for people who were raised with narrow views on sexuality. Whether you are Jewish or not, or in different sects of Judaism like Orthodox, Conservative or Reform, no matter what your background or where you’re from, Jewrotica gets you to see Judaism and how it relates to sexuality in new ways. I really appreciate Ayo being here and helping us learn different ways to connect with our sexuality.
Bedside Reading with Jewrotica was funny, sexy, and hot all at once. The readings were honest about all kinds of sexuality, but the highlight of the evening was definitely the confessions, written by audience participants. Nobody knew who wrote them, and most were tell-alls that would make your bubbe blush. Unless your bubbe was very, very cool. Then maybe she’d make YOU blush!
I attended and participated in last month’s Jewrotica event. The engaging performers and Ayo, our inviting host, inspired the audience to feel like one big community. What a great way to inspire our community to embrace sex as a beautiful thing that can be fun, exciting, sacred, sensual, ridiculous, scary and everything in between!
I’m so glad that Jewrotica is represented here at Jewlicious! It’s bringing voices that need to be heard in the Jewish discussion and Jewish climate environment.
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