Written by Layla’s Lover. Layla’s Lover is a first-time Jewrotica writer.
Her lips are hungry. She is giggling. And she wants me.
Every first kiss is its own mystery. Wariness overcome by want. Lips taking over for arching shoulders, pressing fingers, and a look in our eyes that says, yes…maybe…finally…more. Eyelashes, noses and then you are holding your breath for what should always feel like forever, a first dive into the deep.
It took me a while to understand how girls in Arabia eat with a niqab masking everything save their eyes. My introduction to how they kiss was much less forgiving. Slowly, at first, with the veil slipping down and away, swept aside as the sands before a swirling khamsin; the lips exposed, an oasis amid all that endless black cloth. A treasure this desert explorer had not sought but could not resist once discovered.
Every first kiss is a leap into the unknown. A headfirst dive through mores and regulations designed to wall everyone up in their own private castle. Sometimes the castle walls are especially formidable, covered with fearsome taboos like race, religion, social status. Sometimes those walls are established by others, though the sheerest walls are surely those built from within. Legs intertwined, eyes locked, breath short, my conscious mind was mostly thinking, “yes!” “must get that top off” and “don’t mess this up.” But somewhere inside, I was stuck before those castle walls. The ones I had established over a lifetime of a closely observed and dearly appreciated religious heritage. The promises my religion asks of me and I have made in return, about not finding myself in the arms of a mocha colored, Arabian princess, veil cast aside, soon to be followed by any lingering sense of religious doubt.
Shiksas are supposed to be blond and blue eyed. Not descendants of the prophet. Not a black eyed beauty born to a family of oil sheikhs and Islamic scholars, with fingers and a tongue that were more than capable of reassuring me that exploring each other’s bodies was the least we could do in bridging the gulf between our two communities.
Hidden amid the ivory sheets that writhed beneath us were scurrying figures from our past. A bearded figure, wrapped in a black bekishe, struggling through the snows of my grandparents’ shtetl. A murky shadow, swallowed up in black abaya, peering through the desert haze of her native Arabia. Could they have ever imagined their descendants locked in erotic combat, giggling, panting and fumbling with buttons and bra clasps in a sea of bed sheets not so removed from the snow and sand storms that blanketed their fragile lives?
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I stepped out of my comfort zone to be a part of this. I was glad to open up the topic of sexuality in my community. We are trying to build a safe space to talk about sex. The result I am most happy about coming from this event is that hopefully now my friends know they can come and talk to me, that I can be their ‘safe space’.
I love the inclusiveness – there is something for everyone, in and out of the Jewish community.
At Jewrotica’s Evening of Bedside Readings, students declaimed monologues on sexual encounters that had a Jewish twist. At Columbia/Barnard Hillel, the speakers pushed their own boundaries by performing a range of explicit narratives that challenged how the audience thought of the relationship to Judaism and sex. During the speakers’ preparation, the arguments about which narratives would be appropriate forced students to take a stand and voice their opinion on their own beliefs about Judaism an… Read more
I’m Heshy Fried from Frum Satire and I am very, very frum. And I completely support Jewrotica – it’s doing a service to the frum community. We need some sort of kosher sexual education. Jewrotica even has a system that allows frum filters to filter out certain things to make it PG for us. It’s mamish Torah. It’s like The Little Midrash Says for sex.
Jewrotica is awesome. It expands the mind and for people who were raised with narrow views on sexuality. Whether you are Jewish or not, or in different sects of Judaism like Orthodox, Conservative or Reform, no matter what your background or where you’re from, Jewrotica gets you to see Judaism and how it relates to sexuality in new ways. I really appreciate Ayo being here and helping us learn different ways to connect with our sexuality.
What an incredible night Jewrotica was!!!! There was this fantastic moment, in a sea of Jews of all sexualities, ages, backgrounds and denominations, that I realized we were all in this together! I hope that there are many more events coming to Austin soon!
I’m so glad that Jewrotica is represented here at Jewlicious! It’s bringing voices that need to be heard in the Jewish discussion and Jewish climate environment.
Such an amazing experience! The Sarah Lawrence Jewrotica workshop was more than I could have ever expected – a comfortable, safe, sultry environment where participants clearly felt good about sharing or listening to each other’s intimate experiences and relating them to sexy stories from the Torah. From the moment the workshop began, Ayo had a sweet presence that was kinetic and spread around the room; her storytelling abilities had everyone enraptured and made the conversation topics relata… Read more
While many people fear the “sex talk,” Jewrotica offers an opportunity for writers and audiences to speak about sexuality in a open and safe space. When I attended a Jewrotica reading, I heard stories that reminded me that love takes many forms, and that expressing it is a vital part of who we are as a people.
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