She didn’t know what it was about him. She just kept letting things happen. She’d never been this way around guys. She constantly questioned and analyzed every move to death. She finally wanted to relinquish her control and be vulnerable in embracing the absolute wrong person. A married man? She was crazy. Normally she considered herself a moral person. Doing this was the complete opposite of moral. And it applied to things even outside of the bedroom. He always got her to have that ‘one more drink’ and even to smoke pot for the first time. In college she never caved. Had a stick up her ass about peer pressure. But one look at D, and her resolve disappeared.
. . .
They lay in her bed, talking, and holding each other, passing the time. At one point she let out a huge sigh.
“Something on your mind?”
“I’ve been debating whether to say this, but would you mind if I said I wanted to kiss you?”
“Um, no?”
She turned into him. It was soft and tender. Almost chaste. She loved the scratchiness of his mustache and beard against her face.
And then he ruined it.
“You’ve wanted to kiss me for a long time now haven’t you?” he mused, a very smug look on his face. It reminded her too much of a past boyfriend’s sureness that he would get it all his way. So goddamn cocky.
“Mmm. But god, that is such an egotistical remark you know that?” That smug look was wiped clean from his face. He wasn’t quite expecting something like that from her. Up until then she’d come across as quite pliant.
“I was just born with a big ego,” he quipped a few moments later, and grinned.
She wanted to bite his lips and he was making it difficult. He preferred soft, gentle kisses to her eager, more violent ones. He also didn’t want her to leave any marks. She promised to be careful.
She had her leg slung over his and he pulled her tighter to him. With his rough and calloused hands he stroked up her leg over her thigh and ass and up her back, under her shirt.
“Can I touch your breasts?”
She murmured “yes” and he let out a moaning sigh as he reached for her. He was very gentle and soft. She knew what she liked, but didn’t want to say anything. There was perhaps some remnant of sanity back there that told her not to get carried away. But as the moments passed they began to grind into each other. And then as he went for another pass over her ass, his hand slipped down to her crotch. He began to rub, trying to get her off.
“I’ll do anything you want me to, let me help you,” he whispered desperately.
She felt ashamed, “I can’t.”
“It’s okay. I promise not to do anything you don’t want me to.”
Celebrating 10 Years & Marking the End of An Amazing Project
Celebrating 10 Years & Marking the End of An Amazing Project
While many people fear the “sex talk,” Jewrotica offers an opportunity for writers and audiences to speak about sexuality in a open and safe space. When I attended a Jewrotica reading, I heard stories that reminded me that love takes many forms, and that expressing it is a vital part of who we are as a people.
At Jewrotica’s Evening of Bedside Readings, students declaimed monologues on sexual encounters that had a Jewish twist. At Columbia/Barnard Hillel, the speakers pushed their own boundaries by performing a range of explicit narratives that challenged how the audience thought of the relationship to Judaism and sex. During the speakers’ preparation, the arguments about which narratives would be appropriate forced students to take a stand and voice their opinion on their own beliefs about Judaism an… Read more
I’m so glad that Jewrotica is represented here at Jewlicious! It’s bringing voices that need to be heard in the Jewish discussion and Jewish climate environment.
Jewrotica is awesome. It expands the mind and for people who were raised with narrow views on sexuality. Whether you are Jewish or not, or in different sects of Judaism like Orthodox, Conservative or Reform, no matter what your background or where you’re from, Jewrotica gets you to see Judaism and how it relates to sexuality in new ways. I really appreciate Ayo being here and helping us learn different ways to connect with our sexuality.
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Jewrotica is a great way to ask interesting questions about the interplay between sensuality and Jewish wisdom. Check it out.
The people behind Jewrotica are quite quality! I have confidence that any project these folks take on will be equally quality.
I’m into Jewrotica. I went in for my second circumcision.
I attended and participated in last month’s Jewrotica event. The engaging performers and Ayo, our inviting host, inspired the audience to feel like one big community. What a great way to inspire our community to embrace sex as a beautiful thing that can be fun, exciting, sacred, sensual, ridiculous, scary and everything in between!
I love the inclusiveness – there is something for everyone, in and out of the Jewish community.
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