She didn’t know what it was about him. She just kept letting things happen. She’d never been this way around guys. She constantly questioned and analyzed every move to death. She finally wanted to relinquish her control and be vulnerable in embracing the absolute wrong person. A married man? She was crazy. Normally she considered herself a moral person. Doing this was the complete opposite of moral. And it applied to things even outside of the bedroom. He always got her to have that ‘one more drink’ and even to smoke pot for the first time. In college she never caved. Had a stick up her ass about peer pressure. But one look at D, and her resolve disappeared.
. . .
They lay in her bed, talking, and holding each other, passing the time. At one point she let out a huge sigh.
“Something on your mind?”
“I’ve been debating whether to say this, but would you mind if I said I wanted to kiss you?”
“Um, no?”
She turned into him. It was soft and tender. Almost chaste. She loved the scratchiness of his mustache and beard against her face.
And then he ruined it.
“You’ve wanted to kiss me for a long time now haven’t you?” he mused, a very smug look on his face. It reminded her too much of a past boyfriend’s sureness that he would get it all his way. So goddamn cocky.
“Mmm. But god, that is such an egotistical remark you know that?” That smug look was wiped clean from his face. He wasn’t quite expecting something like that from her. Up until then she’d come across as quite pliant.
“I was just born with a big ego,” he quipped a few moments later, and grinned.
She wanted to bite his lips and he was making it difficult. He preferred soft, gentle kisses to her eager, more violent ones. He also didn’t want her to leave any marks. She promised to be careful.
She had her leg slung over his and he pulled her tighter to him. With his rough and calloused hands he stroked up her leg over her thigh and ass and up her back, under her shirt.
“Can I touch your breasts?”
She murmured “yes” and he let out a moaning sigh as he reached for her. He was very gentle and soft. She knew what she liked, but didn’t want to say anything. There was perhaps some remnant of sanity back there that told her not to get carried away. But as the moments passed they began to grind into each other. And then as he went for another pass over her ass, his hand slipped down to her crotch. He began to rub, trying to get her off.
“I’ll do anything you want me to, let me help you,” he whispered desperately.
She felt ashamed, “I can’t.”
“It’s okay. I promise not to do anything you don’t want me to.”
Celebrating 10 Years & Marking the End of An Amazing Project
Celebrating 10 Years & Marking the End of An Amazing Project
The Jewrotica event “Evening of Jewrotica: Bedside Reading” was awesome. As Master of Confessions, I got to read the deepest, darkest secrets of people in the room out loud… It was scintillating, titillating, and – yes – even educational!
My opinion on Jewrotica is: It’s sexy. It’s awesome. It’s Judaism to the next level. It’s what we should all be getting into!
I stepped out of my comfort zone to be a part of this. I was glad to open up the topic of sexuality in my community. We are trying to build a safe space to talk about sex. The result I am most happy about coming from this event is that hopefully now my friends know they can come and talk to me, that I can be their ‘safe space’.
Jewrotica is a great way to ask interesting questions about the interplay between sensuality and Jewish wisdom. Check it out.
Jewrotica is awesome. It expands the mind and for people who were raised with narrow views on sexuality. Whether you are Jewish or not, or in different sects of Judaism like Orthodox, Conservative or Reform, no matter what your background or where you’re from, Jewrotica gets you to see Judaism and how it relates to sexuality in new ways. I really appreciate Ayo being here and helping us learn different ways to connect with our sexuality.
While many people fear the “sex talk,” Jewrotica offers an opportunity for writers and audiences to speak about sexuality in a open and safe space. When I attended a Jewrotica reading, I heard stories that reminded me that love takes many forms, and that expressing it is a vital part of who we are as a people.
Bedside Reading with Jewrotica was funny, sexy, and hot all at once. The readings were honest about all kinds of sexuality, but the highlight of the evening was definitely the confessions, written by audience participants. Nobody knew who wrote them, and most were tell-alls that would make your bubbe blush. Unless your bubbe was very, very cool. Then maybe she’d make YOU blush!
Such an amazing experience! The Sarah Lawrence Jewrotica workshop was more than I could have ever expected – a comfortable, safe, sultry environment where participants clearly felt good about sharing or listening to each other’s intimate experiences and relating them to sexy stories from the Torah. From the moment the workshop began, Ayo had a sweet presence that was kinetic and spread around the room; her storytelling abilities had everyone enraptured and made the conversation topics relata… Read more
You may not tell your mom that you’re going to a live Jewrotica reading (or whatever clever name you will dub these events) but you will tell your friends. However, both would be jealous if they find out that they missed it. I think it will only be a matter of time before Jewrotica helps us reclaim the term “Dirty Jew” the way rap music has done for “The ‘N’ Word.” I know I am now proud to be a Dirty Jew!
Jewrotica is inspiring Jews and erotica with holiness and coolness, and is the pride of progressive Judaism. Jewrotica – awesome!
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